Bad news

Time for an update…
I didn’t get the GRF position, which is very disappointing. I’m not sure what they were looking for that I didn’t have, but I’m really disheartened. Now I’m stuck trying frantically to find somewhere to live. I think I’ll be ok and will find somewhere fine, it’s just that I’m likely to end up spending more on housing than I would ideally like. I guess it’s good I’ve got some money socked away.
Alice (EARS advisor) seemed surprised as well. The only thing I can think of is that they may have wanted someone who could be there for more than one year, which I, admittedly, cannot. But they could have told me that, I guess. Instead I got the usual “we had many qualified applicants bla bla bla” thing.

I’m reminded of what my mother said when I was talking to her about it a week or so ago. Really, it’s not just a question of who is most qualified and would do the best job. There are so often so many other factors playing in that you (as an applicant) never even know about, and maybe that was the case here as well. I’m not even sure I really do want to know why I didn’t get it… it doesn’t help that I’m also feeling really sick and extremely tired of coughing. Plus having to have even more messing around with meds… not really what I need at the moment, probably. Last time I was sick it ended up lingering for a week or two, which I really don’t need right now. It would definitely put a damper on excitement for the spring break plans if I’m going to be coughing lots then. More realistically, I’m going to feel continual guilt for not having achieved anything work-wise in the past two months, and that will be what stops me from having too much fun during the vacation.

Anyway, depressed posts on a blog no-one reads aren’t really terribly interesting, so I’ll stop this one now.