Updates or something

So I haven’t written anything here in a long long time. And I’ve also stopped posting to my main message board. And I’ve been thinking a lot about why that is.

And lo and behold, I’ve come up with some kind of answer. Because I think I’ve found what I do instead. Which is to chat with friends online. Basically, I feel like chatting online is really my perfect medium. It lets me formulate my thoughts in a slightly more detailed and considered way than I would in conversation (and utilize the written word rather than the spoken, with all the delights that offers), but it’s still spontaneous and quick and fast. It’s more about wit than about carefully crafting something. And maybe it’s that I don’t have a long enough attention span to really craft a carefully worded blog post that will contain deep and meaningful content. But I’ve come to the conclusion that that’s okay. And that I’m going to allow myself to just write blog entries more like how I chat online. Which is to say free-form, without extensive editing.

If I really want to write something that’s meaningful, I can obviously edit it and make it better. But if I’m just writing some simple observations about stuff, then I think I can just do that without needing to feel much pressure. And hey, it should be better than writing nothing at all, right? That’s my hope, in any case. Because so far, the alternative has been to just leave this sitting here and write nothing whatsoever, feel vaguely guilty about it, worry that I should try to fill in all the empty space from whenever I last posted, try to write entries about things I promised literally years ago but know I probably won’t ever and thus feel more guilty about that, and end up doing nothing about it thus perpetuating the cycle.

Yeah, so I’m done with that. That’s the idea, at least.